Saturday, August 05, 2006
i'm dead tired man....sch works r piling like mad....stress conquer me.....how i miss her....haiz.....leaving mayb the right choice....i dun haf time animore...sch i hate u.....idiot siaz.....test projects exams...seminar....voluntary works also...y man...y m i so buzi....haiz....how i miss thai....work load alot...but....work is fun there....with everyone ard u chatting...fun...n less seriousness in it....everyone enjoying work there...doesnt require much brain power juz force...i think i really going to fall soon...cant take it animore....i really nid to relax myself....i wan go beach again...but its seven month mum dun allow...haiz....nvm ba....hope someday ppl free ask me out....BUT no shopping pls...i going poor le.....spending 800 in 3 days is my limit....man dun noe took how long to save de...n i spend like in a flash....haiz....now i throw my card at home le...juz to prevent myself from swiping n signing....relax ah jon..... i thx hui² an michelle n jac...for showing concern to me when i'm down i'm touch....i dun think i will forget that person 4 sumtimes...really took alot out of me....i'm really tired le....i nid a super gd long break....long in sch animore not at home animore...juz sumwhere far...i dun mind back in thai....but...due to time consumption n work loads n sch...i cant do tat animore....ns is coming after me soon...it seems like i haf to defer yet again....actually i wan ns first then study..but i scare i forget everything then die...aniwae...next week is my dad's birthday le...national day...i juz hope his alright ba...pls take care of urself dad wherevr u r....i'm sorrie i dun bother to look 4 u...cause u dun bother to call back either....u gone missing in africa for 1 yr plus....reaching 2 yrs i think....but from wat ur colleague said.....u r still alive n well-being...so if u dun bother calling back...y shld i look....aniwae....it seems like u nvr had time 4 me aniwae...so i dun care a great deal....after the day u two divorce...well it affect my life...it doesnt seem like it...from surface i'm a happie go lucky kid who doesnt care abt anithing....well....is really cause i dun show it....few ppl noes....i'm actualyl a very moody person...i seldom smile when alone.....lonliness is wat i often felt....mum is always working...i dun blame her ba...whenever i'm at home after sch...all i c is wall....ard me...no one....onli companion is a pc....so sumtimes i rather loiter ard sch n go out with frenz...at least there sumthing i can do....haiz.......aniwae dis few days cause of sum prob i'm really upset ba.....lucky got mich hui² an n jac...or i think my mind will go haywire...i really nids someone to hear me talks...everyone alwaes seems buzi ard me....from my point of view it seems like no one has the time 4 me...but i noe tat my own way of thinking...i noe there ppl who cares abt me....but i still thinks tat way....i think de wound in my heart is deep....it will take times to heal it....i hope tat person who will heal it will come soon....or else.....i may not be the me animore....recently sadness is more than my cheerfulness animore....i dun smile animore in front of my frenz animore....i dun noe....i dun act happie anymore....i dun act cheerful animore...sumone close to me told me....jon dun look so moody...very sad wox...but i dun noe cant smile...my sunshine n brightness is gone...really.....aniwae....i really miss tat person.....hope u take care.....n TO MY DAD...HAPPIE BIRTHDAY......i still think of u but its not like used to be animore....mum take care also dun overstress urself....dan also ....hope u enjoy urself in taiwan....hui² and an..wish u two all the best stay happie together...michelle hope u c ur shen shen soon...dun hate ur mum n dad...can c dey care abt u....dun wish 4 their divorce....de only reason they r together is because of u n ur bro....sumtimes u nid to show ur mum n dad....u love dem...n dun make it obvious u liek ur shen shen more than dem...it hurts dem...tat may be de reason y ur mum calls u n check of u...is because she nids a reason to find u because she miss u....juz take care ba...HAY hope i c u soon.....really miss u....phone chat yesterday was fun....how haf u been...aniwae hope sundae i got time go find u...well take care...my dear dear wifey which is no more wifey u take care too ba...will miss u..hope u find a good guy soon....TAKE CARE EVERYONE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.....................
Saturday, August 05, 2006
