Sunday, November 19, 2006
o well feeling betta...numb alreadi
o well kinda feeling betta now...
was drinking de dae b4 at midnite...
hmm i cant imagine myself drinking again..
burr n one touch 40% alcholic drink..
wat de hell m i doing...
i woke up with a headache..not quite terrible..
juz slight only...
but still...i'm feeling much betta after releasing stress at east coast park yesterday with my adik dae all..
had a small picnic..
den was enjoying de sea..
make me kinda like forget a little trouble..
realli gotta to thx dem for asking me to go picnic..
though we plan to haf meeting in de end cancel..
thx to hali..
haiz..
i realli miss sch now..
i hope attachment end quickly n i can get back quickly..
miss de sch banana milkshake oso..
huihui hilmee...
i'm kinda fine now..
ignore me if i'm like gifing de dead looks..
haha..
juz ignore it..
i'm serious..
n farhan.. i dun wan u go ard punching ppl...
realli violent bur..
my heart is kinda like numb alreadi...
no feeling alreadi..
haiz...de words she said..realli hurts ppl alot..
alot of things happen in juz one dae..
i almost started smoking ...
but manage to stop myself..
i will regret it if i ever smoke..
o well..
den de thought of dying...
o well..
realli..
if in de world if i haf no frenzs...
my mum n bro not ard..
maybe i will jzu jump n die..
cause i wouldnt make anione sad..
so realli seriously...
i dun realli care a damn lot..
o well...
smiling smiling...
i once heard of summone telling me...
"Jon onli somone hu experiences alot..
noes how to understand n make a person smile...
but still de summone is alwaes de sad party feigning a smile..
for de sake of not letting de other party werri or sad...
de smile from u or rather de summone alwaes looks happi but still it brings a little or sorrow if de other party realli understand u...now i noe de meaning of ur smile...so i hope from todae onwards smile for my sake...not for de sake of others...
juz for urself..show dat u realli r satisfied with life n ppl..cause everytime i c u smile..i kinda like wan to cry...cause ur smile realli hides de feeling of sadness.."
dis words was once meant for me...
she said it to me..
dis girl..
well... kinda like...i guess i wont c her again..
so it doesnt realli matter animore..
i hope she stay happi as it is..not here animore...
n hmmm she not my ex so dun go thinking wild...hahaha....
o well...guess my buds...
i luv ya all...
so well take care aite..
cya guys...keje keje...
mendak siak...
haiz...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
