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2007-05-08T09:53:00.000+08:00

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2007-05-02T09:43:00.000+08:00

O.o
a dae at sch..wahaah.
im finally gonna get my guitar tmr =)
hurhurhru..
hope i learn it soon!!!
well at sch..
im flooded with projects n assignemnt.
but i think i cn manage it sooo ..
itssss ok!!!

2007-04-27T11:08:00.000+08:00

sakit la...
kepala oatak~~~=X
im having headache but stilll...
pergi skola...
tk kuasa hu cares aniwae!!!
dun feel like eatin oso...
tk lapar...
nk tdo la aku...
ahhh ari ini..
ade nite shooting at esplanade ehkx!!!
ahh!!!
tkpe..haizz...its my interest!!! haiz.
aniwae,
was haiqyyy fault lol stress me out..
so wanna rest la!!
LOL!!!
tata...kat class gt sch la!!!
aiya..!!
tata cya all=)
muack!!

2007-04-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!!!LOL
random random...
update of blog..
i think i going change my blog skin
soon..
tired of kip designing blog oso..
jus make a custom make one by online ....
heee..
recently.
did alot of pic editing.
go hit my frenzster fer more info.
!!!
lol.
n yea..sch has been fun except.
de..
eletric thingy.
.abit bored.
kip closing my eyes..
tired la!!!
ku nak rest rest rest rest la!!!
sum1 suggested going out on sat..
tapi aku mls..
tk nk kluar!!!=X
ok la..
im currently in sch oso haha..
o yea.
tat dae went out with elfiee az rizz.
.was fun lol.!!!
til lde late nite.
LOL.
n i gt booked fer no reason ..
omg..
lol.
haha
!! well..
tmr will be a long dae..!!

2007-04-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

hmm..~~
thx to sum1,,~
i recognise sum1~~
nt saying hu de 1~~
but i c de mirror side =)
im sad..still im hapi.1
im nt gg to fucking care abt u..
hu care.s
fuck off.
dun like me fuck off.
hate me..fuck off.
i like wat i m..
same..so``..yea hate me all u wan..

2007-04-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

hey hey..
brand new ngee ann
brand new me =)
highlighted my hair red =)
hmm wanted to upload.
but bloggy wouldnt allow hh a!!
nvm next time will c it.
well aniwae..
hmmmmmmm gonna get my laptop soon..
hope it comes soon~~~
im so impatient..
hand itchy oso haha!!!
well..
course started..
let say was alite.
nt realli tat tough to being..
except de electricity part..
but i think i cn cope no werri!!
heee =)
take care my frenzs..
thx fer de birthdae nite on 13 april..
with all de footprints creams..
everithing on me lol..
n wth lol..
all say..
present belated lol.
no nid gif alrdi la if tatttt de case LOL..
BO XIN>..
lol!!!!
nvm take care all =)

2007-04-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

haha..
brand new dae =)
tda..
rather bz dae..
afew phone call to pick up hah!!
but nvm ..
it kips me bz..
dat gd =)
so poly gonna start..
let say..
nt realli worri..
juz ..
nervous n bored i guess..
3 yrs of poly to go..
haiz..
n nw my frenz is screaming while talkin to me on de phone..
juz because he lost in de game...
siaoz haha!!!man..
poly poly haha!!
gd luck to all my frenzs..
gd luck to shell shell oso =)

2007-04-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

hey ngee ann. called me up..
saying dey offer me de course!!
so i assume i gt it..
fmb !!
hey hey

2007-04-04T09:25:00.000+08:00

hmm my ite result out..
was aite..
no big comments n fuss!!
A - Industrial Attachment
A - Overseas Attachment
A - Computing Mathematics and Program
B - Linux
Total Gpa 3.534..
My CCA Also A So Gpa Allowance of 0.2..
making my gpa now 3.7 ah..
well..
tat tat nw im waiting fer my poly result..
man y haven i get it..
ahh!!
so nervous!!

2007-04-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

man if ya angry with me juz say y..
dun kip quiet..
dun ask me figure..
if my blog..
affects u..
tell me..
i wont type anithing.
if i made u angry im sorrie alrite..
haiz..
aniwae...
if ya wanna noe..
my blog was talking abt few personss..
its nt all abt u ya.
aite..
seriously..
juz a small portion was bout u..
tat all..
its nt all u ok..
so cn u juz dun fcuking think too much..
ahh!!!
n i was juz saying lucki i haf a few gd buds..
n tat includes U..
if tat post made me lose u..
i rather delete my blog Aite.
ahhh.
nvm.
tc big guy..!!!

2007-03-31T10:54:00.000+08:00

a dae at work..
a dae at home..
a dae in bed ..
a dae out..
haha.
life is tiring man.
woo..!!
but rest rest rest rest/..
hakz//
well..
hmmmm lucki gt frenzs ard..
tat make life interesting..
hard to find sum1 to chat at nite though.
but im ok with it ..
go slp lohz.,.
ahah.
dun disturb ppl oso =).
haha..
hey hey..
todae getting my merit woo 400 bucks..
ish lagi shiok haha!!!

2007-03-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

im getting my attitudes ya nowadaes..
sorrie..
ppl.
sorrie hui2..
i noe my attitude gt ahead of ya..
sorrie girl..
dis few daes.
not in a gd mood.
...
well..
i suddenly feel..
im such a worthless person.
haha.
indeed i m..
if i get hurt..
ppl say.
padan muke or serve ya rite.
when dey make promises...
dey say..
hmm forget abt it when de times comes..
when ppl find me.
nt because dey wanna chat.
is cause dey gt things nid help.
a person. find me oni if he nids songs..
a person. finds me oni if shes/he is bored
a person. finds me oni if gt probs n nids a listener.
but when a time comes when i nid a person to chat with when im bored..
well.
its alwaes seems like no one dere.
a chat in msn..
replys nvr came..
a call on phone.
de other side nvr picks up de phone.
a sms goes..
was nvr answered.
haha.
maybe in de end..
im made fer ppl..
nt fer myself haha.
well.
sorrie if my blog made anione angry but.
nvm.
sorrie.
sorrie.
sorrie.
well
guess im off to sum emo thingy ..
sorrie ppl...
cause tat me.........
but im lucki maybe.
i do haf a gd buds.
who lends me deir ears..
i mean.
well.i dun share it though.
i luv to suffer alone.
i luv to sobs alone...
i dun wan my probs to affect others.
..

2007-03-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

Emptiness...

Frenz range..

2007-03-22T23:02:00.001+08:00

Frenz Range...
Best Frenzs....Other Frenzs...Then Jon..
Family Range...
Brother...Grandma...Blah Blah Blah..Then Jon..
Maybe But im thinking too much but..
well..ppl alwaes find me fer a reason...
request help blah blah blah.
im okie..
no werri =)
juz dun overdo it..
like if ya wan me to help u find songs lol..
pls slowly at a time.
im nt a dl station ok.
dun bomb super mani song to me at a time..
i oni gt 2 hands n a pc..
pls.
thx...
n well.
i kinda hates promises..
i had mani promises from frenzs =)
tat gr8..
well but..
nobody kips it at all..
i mean..
haiz.
maybe im nt worth it..
is ok.
i once again..
step into my own cozy home..
but is it cozy..
tat nth in it..
i open de door..
i oni c walls..
nth else.
no ppl no nth..
i stand alone in de darkness..
alwaes..
i enjoyed..
de rain juz now.
standing in it..
geting myself wet.
it realli..
woke me up..
i enjoyed it..
i luv standing in de rain..
=)
like it more den drinking haha..!!!

2007-03-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

omg scald my hand todae..
haha..
nt pain at all..
juz all red oni..
haha..
aniwae..
is ok..
haiz..
todae was a long dae..
at home watching..
snake on de plane..
gross dose snake haha.
aniawe..
tmr work work work.
heee =)
gotta slp earli.
maybe 2 am later hee ..
take care

2007-03-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

im gg cut my hair todae..
haha..
trim trim trim.
den cut cut cut.
no more long hair =).
be a gd boi haah..!!!
wait i alwaes m heee =)

2007-03-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

its rather hard being understood man.
knew it man..
haha.
i dun bloody care realli..
aniwae.
was sorri tat i didnt make it on de study on thursdae with shell n fahanah when i say i would go..
n yup i was indeed slping soundly like a pig at home.
i m so proud to say tat..
pls..
fer goodness sake.
if a sick man...
runs ard actively.
would it be normal..
maybe im at fault i didnt say anithing abt it..
sorrie den..
haa..
yup guess oni a few ppl noes im sick..
woo~~~~
fever 39 degrees to 40 style rite!!!>
i luv fever with headache..
especially ur ears hurts with de fever woo~~
i luv fever..
aniwae.
was sick on wednesdae n thursdae tat y i didnt go to sch...
n i oni got betta on fridae..
n i took de initiative to go out to teach ppl maths..
im nt all dat bad aite..
at least i teach ppl..
i may nt de de best.
but tat de least i cn do..
if i cn help..
i mean..
if u think i cnt help at all.
y in de first place ask me out fer..
i dun nid it..
thx..
n gd luck ray shell abg n fiq n all dos others out dere!!! gd luck fer de exam..
will miss ya peeps..

2007-03-07T11:21:00.000+08:00

currently..
in sch...now.......
posting...
bored...
listening tomaha karya cinta..
nice song..
heee.!!!
dose wan take from me tau!!!!
ahakz..
aniwae..
later will be hafing vb test..
hope its easi..
next week is my last dae of sch..
den i graduate..
fast ah..
haha..
i didnt realli thought much of it..
but everithing ended will fast..
sch..friends..
relationship...
exams..
but..
still..
one thing nvr change..
de daes i had..
de friends i made..
de event i joined..
de best was de overseas trip i guess..
i gotta..noe alot of few gr8 bud..
hakz..
maybe if i didnt went dat time..
i wouldnt make more new frenzs...
it change me alot...
im not like b4..
but..
whether its gd or bad i dun noe..
i kinda h8 de wae i m now..
haha..
haha,,
i aint a sadist alright but..
haha..
de wae i think change alot...
haha..
its kinda bad i noe..
hahaha,,
but still guys it all gr8 noeing u all hee =);
take care all!!..

2007-03-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

I wont be blogging..
nt in de mood..
todae..
come to thnk of it.
i h8 it..
when ppl cry cause im nt thoughtful enough..
my grandma cried cause i wasnt willing to go to my dad house..
n my bro scold me fer tat.
m i a bastard..
i m .
making a old woman ..
cried.
damn it.
fuck siak jon.
cibai kia..!!.
den my mum cried todae..
nt because i make her.
jzu sumthing shock her..
i cant take it.
i cant bear to c her cry...
luv her too dearly.
it juz simply make me..
down..
dun feel like talking..
..aniwae..she called me...at nite..who is she..sum1..pass memory haha..
she said to me..
juz feel like chatting with u..
dun hang up my phone..
after a few min talk ..
she hang up n she said to me dear thx....
m i a sub or sumthing..
u turn to me when u r unhappy..
kick me aside when u r ok or feeling gr8..
i'm a person who ppl turn to ..
im ok with it..
im alright with it...i dun mind giving advices..
but pls..
if when u r ok..
when i talk to u..
fd fucking sake..
reply..
dun treat me like a bin.
cibai..
dun talk to me todae..
in a bad mood...

2007-02-26T02:23:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!
sorrie..viewers..
i totally forgot..
i haf such things call blog haha..
didnt realise..
i didnt update at all.
ahha..
was rather bz..
with de new yr stuff n so on..
haha..
so here one new entry..
recently..
if u ask me..
my mood is alright ..
haha no werri peeps..
heeee..
im trying to stand up nw..
maybe a few falls but..
im ok..
haha..
u cn leave me alone..
if u feel im juz a nusiance or being one..
but seriously..
i m ok mostly..
n not ok at times..
if u c i act weird..
overly crazi..
it means im nt ok..
if u c me quiet abit..
talk when ness it means.. im alright..
juz dun feel like talking..
or juz plain tired hee..
n to khaiz..
yo..
bro cheer up man..
hehe.e..
cya on wednesdae..
dun miss me!!!..
lynn lynn to..
to huihui..
u ah.
hack care.. la.
i sure knock ur head when i c u..
wooo..hilmee..
miss u!!!>.
=X..
lol..
n hey ya..
submitted my poly admission form..
hope i cn go in.
haha..
realli pray hard..
dun disappoint me dis time..
i will be real sad..
haiz..
take care everione..
is 230 am in de morning..
time fer bed haha!!!

2007-02-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPI CHI NEW YR >..
EVERIONE>>>
miss mE miss mE.
haha..
its a gr8 hot dae haha..
i'm burning with passion..
so here a testi..
hmm.
a nice red packet dae,,
money come..
but after few daes..
money go..
haha..
cause spend alrdi =X..
hehehe..
.todae was damn tiring..
had to rest up tonitel.
so let say i slp earli tonite..
hmmm..
let say..ok i will slp at 3 am..
c isnt it earli haha..!!1..
take care peepss.
anithing ring me on my phone../
whether i replys or wat..
is another thing..
take care ..
alwaes!!!..
syg u too..
dun sad alright..
if she make u angry again..
tell me..
dun stress over it yaself..
n huihui..
ur de most loyal n trustworthy person i noe..
no werri2@@

2007-02-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

Khairul & Hilmee
Lynn & Huihui
Us togther

yeap yeap..
gr8 valentine dae..
went fer two date..
gt other photos..
but..
nt with me yet..
peeps..
enjoy njoy!!!

2007-02-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

heee..
crazi dae...
wednesdae is valentine..
woo~~ ..
gt date..
few of dem..
but where to go..
think my frenzs betta!!..
single date is bored,., =X?/
o well..
on phone now..
nth much..
m i starting to be hated..
by ppl..
i m juz so irritating..
nvm..
i'm maintaining it..
no werri..
forever crazi me!! haiz...

2007-02-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

yoyoyoyo.
yoyooyoyo..
hmm todae was damn tiring..
basketball , table tennis,frisbee,badminton,floor ball..
after tat i had my 2.4..
manage to run oni 3 rounds..
de weather was so damn hot...dehydrated fast siak..
alamak...
but nvnm..
i fail aniwae..
haiz..
sad..
but todae cmaths test ..
i think i make it.
so no werris =)

2007-02-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo..
haven been updating..
nt feeling well..
hehe..
but ok alrdi..
hmm..
let c..
my event...
had a linux test on tuesdae..
was rather tough..
but ok la..
think i manage to do it,,
with sum help from leon..
ahha..
den tmr gt cmath test..
but i think i cn manage it..
so shuld be alright haha..
well.
been playing game fer few daes..
rather bore dthough..
but like
ahah
spend time
nt bad haha..
we//..
tmr class photo..
but i dun feel like taking though..
i dun even like de well ..
nvm.
no comments..
hakz..
ok la..
recently i'm ok ..
so no werris..
take care evrionr..

2007-02-03T05:05:00.000+08:00

dis few daes was bored./.
so ended up playing maple with shuling n eames n shell lol..
my cass world ac...3 daes time..
nw lv 28 mage fast ah..
lol./.
den todae dey play bootes..
lol..
lvl 9 le..
haha..
weird la..
aniwae..
was juz fer entertainment..
nth much..
but ..
dis is de time..
i realise alot of ppl talking to me..
sorrie if i replied late..
in game..
nt dat i ignoring u or sumthing ok..
dun get mad haha..
take care yea =)
n o ya..
been sick fer two daes..
nvr go sch..
den tmr abg ami shell garrett coming my houes lol..
enjoy enjoy..
haha

2007-01-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

from special request from summone..
rite nw..
dun realli feel like bloggin but..
since dear dear ask me to..
so ok ..
will blog sumthing..
i think i'm getting sick..
my minds is data overfill..
mind is damn messy..
but i'm trying to feel alright..
haiz.
stress sey..
feel like scolding.
but i'm trying to be gentlemen.
so i'm not gonna say anthing..
well..
todae mr omar didnt turn up.
he said dere was 2.4.
but in de end..
he didnt turn up at all..
...
bastard sey..
but nvm..
i'm ok with it..
go home oni..
i think i having a fever nw..
but.
rest rest.rest.
tmr go sch again...
tmr gt vb test..
gonna study..
but hu cares..

2007-01-26T01:09:00.000+08:00

weeee~~~ for eames haha..

veri long nvr c u ..

so do dis pic fer u hehe..

gt miss me rite ..

i noe i noe hehe..

well..

u n her still same no big diff..

happi..

haha.

cause too long nvr c so enjoy enjoy hehe...

well been a gr8 dae..

oops..

hmm above all were meant to be yesterdae haha..

fer todae let say de dae is long..

like 830 am to 6 pm i reach home 7 pm plus siak..

alamak..

so tiring..

well todae fer a change i take 27 cause bus full cannot board..

i meant 72..

bugger sey de bus driver dun wan open door..

nvm den after tat reach sch den lesson lesson until 11..

den went to lib with garrett ray n shell hehe..

den borrow some books oops hehe..

buka ...buka...buka..

enjoy enjoy..

well let sae it was supose to be my s & w lesson..

but guess wat..

we ended at tampines shopping hehe..

so cabot cabot hehe.

naughty la...

haha.. den lesson again..

den end.

balik..

chat..

alot of moody ppl..

den ijal sick ah..

sad sey ala..

nvm take care dude..

hehe..

well tat tat..

take care peeps hehe

2007-01-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

stupid ppl do stupid things..
dat y gt me ard.. hakz..
well let say its a fairly gd dae..
nth much to comment though..
at de fact dat dere r lame ppl ard todae hehe

2007-01-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

omg..
sakit sey hehe..
aku tak tahu ada bahalol pun boleh sakit..
siapa yang bahalol, o saya rupanya..
hehehe...
aku mcm oni..
ari ini..tk pergi skola..
oopss oppss..cabot siak..mampos...cause tk de mc..
hehehe..
smlm...
tdo dari pukul 8 malam hingga pukul 1petang....
bayangkan...
ho ho ho ..
mcm babi sey heheh...
mendk sey..
ZZZzzZZZZZZ..
nth to do siak..
tk ngk tv...tk main game..zzzZZZzz
alrite take care peepss..
enjoy enjoy..
jaga diri hur hur hur..
slmt mlm

2007-01-14T14:55:00.000+08:00

Is Being GooD Ez...

I Dun Noe Sey..

Haiz..

i wan my frenzs to smile cause of me..

i wan my frenzs to smile not because of wat i m..

because of wat i did..

i dun wan dem to cry because i'm sad..

i dun wan dem to feel moody when i m..

cause it makes no point in it..

cutting hurts?..

does it..

nope..

i cut myself..

well..

it juz feel dis wae..

juz dis wae..

numb alrdi..

like sum gurl haha..

hu cut herself a thousand times..

hu says nt scare of pain animore at arm..

mine is juz minor..

my kb was bloody haha..

i wipe it off..

but de stinging at my hands..

i laugh at de thought i did tat..

haha...hw cool is it..

i think my wound heals fast ..

dun noe y..

it alwaes disappear in a dae time or two..

haha......

i feel like crying everitime i laugh out loud...

is it realli tat hard to laugh n all..

i dun noe sey..

well..

fer sumtimes..

i will be dis wae..

so dun bother me..

if u think i bothers u pls..

thx..

2007-01-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

well..sad sad sad..sad things make ppl sad..happi things make ppl happi..but y i'm alwaes meeting sad things..hai..well..daes gotta be pass...i skip sch todae...cabot yea..headache...headache..tired tired..tmr going out park..
enjoy abit..
haiz,,

2007-01-10T18:22:00.000+08:00

hmm hmm hmm..
well well well.
3rd dae of sch alrdi..
kinda tiring hehe..
o well ...
kinda missing slp..
almost late fer class todae..
i thought i didnt set my alarm..
but in de end i think its my phone gifing me probs..
will i let it last to feb..
hehe..
i wanna c whether got new phone not.
or should i hold on juz until dis sundae haiz.
o well..
its kinda bored though life in sch..
nth much.
but c back a lot of new frenzs..
kinda fun oso la hah.

2007-01-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

bored bored bored..
hmm..
when lepak on fri..
zoo on sat..
kinda tiring..
decided to stay at home n rest todae..
well..
tmr sch..
so..hakz..
enjoy enjoy yea..
bored ehk..
thinking bout sch open..
but at another..
shuld be quite enjoying oso..
heee..
seeing my syg soon..
happi siakz..
hohoh..
o well..
peeps take care =)

2007-01-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

ooppss ooppsss ooppsss//
rain rain rain..
it came again...
y like alwaes rain ah..
haiz..
cant go out lohz..
nvm..
sat zoo..
if it dun rain..
den it presume ok..
take care peeps..
huever wan to go..
juz tag me..
n tell me ok..
thx..
dun feel shy abt it too..

2007-01-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

waking up in de morning..
i find myself moody again..
i dun noe y..
i sumtimes wonder..
is it realli a nid to be in dis world..
everithing is juz bore fer me..
maybe nt..
outings with frenzs maybe....
kinda tiring sumtimes oso..
haiz..
both side of my frenzs..
pushes all planning to me..
leaving me doing all de work la..
i'm realli tired sumtimes but is ok la..
well.. gurl..
i miss u n miss u orite.
de feeling is getting harsher..
o hell..
when cn i get out of dis..
sorrie huihui n hilmee.. i cfm with u on sat orite whether i going to zoo..
kinda no mood...dun talk to me fer de time being oso..
thx..take care..

2007-01-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

ouh n i thought de pic was bigger..
i juz wanted to say..
de number view veri nice haha..
on de last dae of de new yr....
can u belive it..
2006 ppl view ur profile..
kinda cool isnt it..
ppl take care=)
happy new yr heeeee
i'm still miserable though even though its a new yr..
well i juz came back from countdown with frenz..
kinda tired..
cab wait from 12.30 until 3..
haiz..
well..
i'v nt decided to put my past to de back yet..
cause i noe i'm nt able to do tat...de sad feeling is still dere..
its not easily avoided.....

2006-12-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

blogging bloggin bloggin

mood zero zero....

yea with de outings everithing was cool n fun..

but still..

wat up with de bored feeling ..

i dun noe..

myself animore...

sumone explain to me yea..

i dun nid care n concern from ppl..

i'm ok with it...

juz a piece of silence will do ...

beeen bz with things yea...

hmm if u r able to c juz go c la ah...

de no .of profile viewed..

damn lame dis month..

break record ah..

alamak..

return testi oso tired haiz..

well aniwae...

i'm bored bored ..

nt bored because nth to do..

juz bored ...

i dun noe hw to explain de feeling..

maybe yea..

its alwaes de emptiness feeling i'm talking abt..

maybe tat..

o well.

i dun noe ah..

take careeeee..

till den den

2006-12-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

post post post n new post yea..
been feeling bored dis few daes..
weather been bad..
but i still hit out though..
dun wish to stay at home hakz...
cold ehk..
todae christmas eve nite.
gt date out..
but i'm juz plain lazi..
decided to stay at home..
dun feel like going...
thx to de touching weather..
aniwae..
been home late for quite a while alrdi..
been reaching home at 6 am in de morning.
late ehk u think.
ok la..
hakz..
aite.....
anithing..
find me on msn n chat..
haha..
take care

2006-12-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

o well..

i'm blogging again..

so my prob..

not able to resolve..

but i not going to drag on on it..

went to nite safari with huihui hilmee n shell

on sundae..was raining..

but not heavily..

de food at ulu ulu was nice..

sedap sedap..

i dun like de new blog..

add pic oso troublesome..

wanted to add more pic..

but irritating.

muz move here n der..

so if u wan view pic..

go my frenster c can alreadi..

sorriee..

todae mood actually..

nt quite gd..

but juz doesnt sound like it rite..

haiz..

aniwae..

i hate dis feeling i'm having..

realli hates it..

it make me..

hates de world sumtime...

i'm tired..

jumping down is fast =X..

cuba mati..

haiz....

sad....

2006-12-16T03:27:00.000+08:00

Maybe its Because I understand U too Well..
Dat Y i'm sad..
without u ard..all i cn do is listen to de breathing of de wind....
but dere sumthing call time dat exist...
saying dat we wont haf ani prob anithing cn be solve...
but nw....
maybe its because i noe u too well..
dat i cant verified de heartbreaking decision we made...
regrets are alwaes faced alone...
sorrie is all u cn say...
i'm still sad....
i still miss u deeply....
...........................................
de feeling i had...
de emptiness feeling...
juz wat is it..
i dun noe animore...
de feeling of nt havin anione by my side....
i dun haf a dad so wat...
he lose i cant do anithing...
not even make a fucking police report...
i dun noe i dun miss him,,,
maybe because he wasnt ard in de first place for me to miss him...
my grandma(father side) dun like me so wat..
as long as i'm filial to her...
i dun care wat she say or comments...
i dun care...
so wat if she likes my bro more....
so wat if she dun even wan to c me animore..
i dun hell care..
she dun noe how to treasure wat ard her...
she bullies those hu r gd to her....
even my mum...
be glad my mum still care abt her,,,
my parents r divorced..
so she no more my mum mother-in-law...
my mum can choose to hack care her...
so stop paassing sarcastic remarks on ppl..
its irritating...
n stop making things up...
u may not notice it..
but de ppl u staying with now...
dey r treating u veri well...
so stop saying dey r being cruel to u...
i dun enjoy it everitime u call n complain...
few time each dae...
rather tiring to pick up ur phone....
my dad missing case is becoming a prob...
i'm having a headache ardi..
dis probs r adding up to me..
maybe dat y i feel tired of everithing...
..............
all dis n no one to shout at...
noone to complain to...
no one dere to lend me a shoulder to rest on...
o'm getting tired...
i juz hope life end quickly...
i find no meaNING to it.
hmmm maybe one thing...
my frenzs hakz....
i noe u all ard for me thx zima huihui hilmee..
thx...
sumhow nowadaes.....
i find dat u dun noe u at all....
AN......
i dun noe..
do u realli find chatting with me interestin...
or do i juz simply irritates u..
i dun noe...
sorrie ah if my words hurts u ..
i dun noe animore ah bro...
sorriee..
maybe i show u too much concern alrdi...
dat i'm rather tired of it...cause ur reply will alwaes be so touchhing pall thx...
say sumthing new pls...
n i hope once a while u ask me y i'm nt happi..
instead of saying..
ouh not happi ah..
take care of urself aite....
den u will start pouring all ur probs on me again...
i'm veri grateful to haf u as a frenz.......n will help u of course lend u ear everithing...
but i'm not a machine....
dere time i'm sad too..
so choose de rite time to pour ur things on me..
n once a while...try not making me even sadder...
like tat dae was telling u i'm sad alreadi telling u my prob..
den u go add remarks say my fault everiting...
thx a dude....
u didnt make me angry dat dae so dun kip thinking i;m angey...
i juz lose de mood to talk alreadi///
sad alreadi aite dun worsen de condition...
but aniwae...
i'm glad i once had u...
thx pal...
take care...
..................................
aite u all asking me y i'm sad rite...
dis is half de reason...
de other half...
i dun feel like saying..
i will say when i find de moment..
so dun ask me aite...take care

2006-12-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

haiz..
recently..
having de empty feelin dat i had few yrs ago..
dun noe y it started again..
sum girl manage to walk me out of it..
dis time hus going to do it hakz..
nvm is wokie...=X...
lonliness used to it...
aniwae...
de feeling is sumhow like..
for e.g...
u had a bottle of empty coke bottle..
dat wat my heart feels..
empty..
maybe de wound dere had drain all my blood..
maybe tat oso explain y i'm feeling moody..
i dun noe..
sumthing i cant explain it myself.
its juz so pain dere juz thinking of it..
each breathing proves so hard too...
i'm afraid i'm going off soon..
but still..
i'm gg to try standing ..
try..i dun wan to gif up nw..
since i pass it.
so de feeling juz bloody shit get out of my life..
...
my frenzs..
hmm..
try not to talk to me..
for few daes..
dun realli feel like talking now =(..
sorrieee..
take care aite... u all..
n my attachment two more dae to go..
den end..
till den..
i wish to be alone..
thx...n i guess i wont be blogging for a few daes sorrieeeee

2006-12-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

i actually did sumthing weird todae haha....
i drank 7 packet of chrysantamum n 1 can of it..todae..
can u believe it hakz.....

c now u believe ..
i'm so crazi....
soon will be getting diabettes..hakz...
peep stop me..
3 more daes n i complete my attachment..
kinda tiring having to wake up earli to go sch..
cant even cabot ..
boring tau..
alamak..
but still nvm..
sun going to nite safari with huihui hilmee shell jac ah dey all..
=)..
hope i enjoy it heee...
maybe i shuld ask sum ppl go oso enjoy enjoy together but..
i guess nvm i skip it..
aniwae..
was kinda moody yesterday at nite..
talking to him didnt cure my moodiness..
it got worst hakz=)..
nvm i'm not angry at u all wat..
take care aite....heee

2006-12-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

still got pic but dun noe y cant upload weird..
nvm i uplaod de next time =)..
aite after de whole thing end..
me huihui jac michelle hilmee go all admiratly lepak until got police come at 1 am plus haha..
cause make too much noise =X..
but nth happen so rilek oni heee..
okie ba i wan rest tle =)

2006-12-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

hurting sumone was nvr wat i meant to do..
sorrieee gurll....
read ur blog..
dun sad aite =)
jon still ur frenz..
nth change..
i'm me n still me=)
juz a guy with attitude n problematic..=)
so take care jaga diri=)

okok... for yesterday trip hee...
was nice..
at east coast yeah=) huihui birthdae =)
funni bur...
me n isa go mac fetch an halfwae rain..
den we run to mac..
heee....
den we thought of those at de picnic area..
huihui dey all=X...
think dey all wet cause caught in rain..
lucky me n isa fast enough wakaka..
so i guesss dey stuck dere in shelter cant do anithing..
guess wat ..
me isa n an..
ended up at mccafe...
enjoying coffee n aircon=X
...
wakaka....
ok later kena slap by dem =X

was fun...de dae..we mad...nur..
kinda fun with her ard..
her swit singing n everithingy=)
den mad syed..
de guy hu called me gay...few months back..
haha..heard from huihui i think..ala is wokie =X

den khai veri long nvr c him...
equally fun guy heee..
lynnn alwaes fun with her ard =)...
qiaomei fun oso..
play water together yeah yeah..
n khaiz cook nice siak de food..
sedap sedap..
but..
sangat pedas ah..
de mee goreng siak la..
okie i going post sum pic up =)

2006-12-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

when i say hey..
its a wonderful saturday=)
everithing was gr8 helping my grandma celebrate her birthdae even though ..
she dun realli like me..
i'm cool with it..
ppl say i damn fierce =X...
i say wokie oni..
i juz gt my own attitude..
but i'm frenly ah where got fierce..
u approach me talk i sure reply wan..
no werri wakaka...
aniwae..
so touchhing ah..
sumone say i look 15 =X not 18...
so gd to be young again..
lalal..hakz..
tmr de dae..
huihui birthdae..
finally dear gurl growing up so touchin..
nice tmr will c khaiz dey all...
super long nvr c him...
ceh ceh..
nice oso he cooking =X
juz now i go back office in de afternoon..
de engineer inside..
c me mcm c ghost...
aking me hw come i here..
haha..
damn funni siak..
i say come back take book oni..
rilek ppl..
wakaka....

2006-12-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

alala..
done..
spend my 4 hrs doing my current blog=X
i think not dat nice..
but at least on my first try is wokie..
yeah..
first ever blogskin created by me..
haha...
got sum help from a similar owner skin..
got a bit of code for reference..
heeeee....
i dedicate dis blogskin to my frens=)
i luv u all heee.....
n azira thx for all de help..
nice noeing u heeee=)

2006-12-06T02:59:00.000+08:00

another dae of blogging..
i gt a feeling i'm losing myself again..
but i hp i can cling on to de current me...
i dun noe hw long i can last but still i muz try..
sorrie bur ur dad scold u cause of me..
i feel bad..
cause he talking to u n u talking to me at de same time..
den he scold u ...
sorrie pal..
realli sorrie=(..
i scald my hand yesterday..
power trip at my house..
n when i try to fiz it..
de thing juz when *bang*..
n got sparks..
n i burn my fingers....
i'm juz so accident prompt alamak=X..
i wonder y ppl juz kip asking me when i gg find a new gurl..
rite now i'm answering so listen..
i wanna be alone currently..
hurt too many ppl in de process..
of course i haf frenzs...
i noe i'm being take care n loved by dem..
realli thx..
sorrie for nt letting u noe i'm moody aite..
i noe u cn hear from my voice..
take care ah sorrie again..
i seems to haf a habit of saying sorrie ah heee=X..
okie c pic todae yeah yeah..

DIS IS AN...my fav pal..wakaka...luv u dude..
dun miss me aite =X..
enjoy talking to u most..wakaka..
thx for alwaes being by my side=)touching ah..
luv u AN

dis guy is hilmeee...
didnt get to noe him long..
but overall his a gr8 guy..
lameasshole =X..jking oni..
i anihow oni hee..
but i juz luv to noe him..
luv u hilmee

presenting huihui..
de horniest gurl u will ever noe..
she jus simply horny wakaka..
but..
she a gr8 gurl..
frenly..
gatal..n so on n for..
i luv chatting with her too..
n let say..
i'm consider quite close with her=X..
okie la..
i luv u huihui wakaka...=)
dere r 3 mote ppl bur..
but i cant seem to find ani gd photo..
will upload once i find it..
but first let say dey r
..
adik sha..
adik yati n zima..
heee..
aite luv u all too wkaka..
okie la..
i guess i'm gatal too..
so mani ppl to luv..
hakz ..
aite i guess gtg ...
rather late now..its 3.12am..later got work so muz slp..
=)

2006-12-04T21:59:00.000+08:00

thx for chatting ...
thx for noeing u..
good luck to huihui hilmee khai qiaomei shuling eames qi hsien for ur exam....
GOOD LUCK TO AN...tmr gd luck bur..heee...
but happi to say..
i simply luv my frenzs..
so cool to haf u all ard..
but dere r still buggers hu exist hu dun reply sms..
n u noe hu u r=X..
wakaka..
o well..
ceh ceh...
i'm sorrie ppl..
if i'm not understanding enough..
i tried its not wat i wan..
sorrie bur..
moody moody moody me..
gurll..
thx for understanding..
thx for still chatting..
but luv u bur =)..
take care aite ..
without me..
u still haf frenzs ard u no werri..
cause ur de understanding star born once in a million time..
ur a great person..
juz dat i'm not gd enough=)..
but cause of dis..
i will try to learn
try to change..
my life everydae taught me sumthing new..
including being truthful..
to u ..
to frenzs..
to everione..
..
but..
dat one thing abt me..
i'm too naive bur..
i believe everithing ppl say..
maybe tat y i'm wat i m todae..
sum ppl say i'm smart..
but i'm not..
if i guess wat u r thinking..
maybe cause i understand u alittle..
o well..
take care people..
i'm still struggling to change..
so while i'm doing tat..
i wan u all to noe tat..
i juz simply luv all of u..
especially to u..
my pal wakaka an..
thx for alwaes being dere..
n u gurl hu alwaes make me sad n happi at time..
miss lin huihui..
wat de hell u..
n hilmeee punky kid...u ah..i wish i can bash u sumtimes=X...
n of course my adik n zima..luv u two=)

sorrie..

2006-12-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

sorrie for hurting u..
sorrie for leaving u..
sorrie for watever i done..
sorrie for making u sad..
sorrie for making u angry..
sorrie for noeing me..
sorrie for everithing..
i'm not de guy for u..
i'm not even a gd partner..
i cn be a person gd pal..
but i cant be a gd person lover..
i juz sux ..
well..
not blaming anione..
thx to her slightly dat i change ..
but still..
i'm starting to get afraid of it..
bgr..wth is tat..
de term seems so unfamiliar...
i looks normal now..
hee..
act normal now..
i shuld juz stay dis wae..
alone..
single..
dun feel sad pls..
dun cry pls..
dat all i cn say..
wat cn i do..
i'm juz a useless piece of shit..
so peeps..
it best u all dun noe me..
dat betta..
i'm sorrie for making u happi.. n sad at de same..
realli sorrie..
but still i hope we r still frenzs..
let it stay ba..
take care..
still i gotta say de final to u..
love u take care*smuak*..
n...sorriee..deo gratis..

2006-12-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

ceh ceh ceh......
i had fun...
at orchard to vivo..
playing ard...
with peeps..
wakaka...
taking photos..
vivo fireworks...
cablecar...
wow..
juz so much fun..
nice noeing u lynn..
heee...
so swit ah...
ceh ceh..
u go date huihui ba..=)
n juz now had dinner with an..
not bad..
veri long nvr c him..
so touching..
he pervert bur..
anihow touch me=X..
later i picit him den he noe..
dun anihow touch touch..
=x..
haha

2006-11-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

wakaka..
gd mood..
got news..
but shh for de moment..
let u all take ur time n guess ba..
i will tell u if i feel like it..heee..
so take care dude..
heee...
luving u=)

2006-11-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

todae..
fine pleasant dae..
i cut my finger again..
shiok.
saw mushin in de morning..
i was buying breakfast for colleague..
den happily walking..
den suddenly he from behind say hey boi..
i was liek huh..
den saw it was him..
haha..
funni siak..
hee..
ouhkie.
i had lunch with tiangpeng..
n wow..
i saw jasmon..
he was suppose to be in sch ..
wonder y he was at nyp..
n he study same campus as me.
haah.
i ask him he say competition den say confidential cant say..
haha..
funni..
nvm..
hee..
orite.
not bad..
i support huihui n hilmee..
both quick together ba..
my support to u two..
take care.
n to her..
MY DEAR I MISS U NO MORE>>
i'm back to normal..
i may look moody..
but i'm normal aite..
ppl no werri
heee..
take care...=)

2006-11-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

ala...
kinda like hmmm no comments...
juz u n him..
so i meant nth all dis while.. ala...i'm juz a extra behind de scene(maybe)hmm not bad betta den nth...=X
ceh ceh...i'm not in de position to cut in man..
kinda sad...
but still life has to go on..
accepts de fact jon..
u haf did nth wrong so far...
juz stick to urself..
rilek peeps...
when i type tat i'm not sad or anithing..
normal aite..
so dun go tagging ask me dun sad...
ala..
n huever u all think i'm saying..
welll..
dun let ur imagination run wild..
later horse gallop out how...haha...
aite...
but still time spend with u was fun...
but sumtimes..
u nid to be fast in thinking bur..haha..next time i knock sense into ur head....
aite den todae is a rainy dae..
so ppl dun hang ur clothes out n ..
rmb to bring umbrella out when shopping wakaka...=X

2006-11-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

ala.......didnt go vivo todae in de end..
cause was damn tired..
not feeling well oso..
was having a slight fever in de afternoon..
so ended up resting at home..
sorrie for lying to say i'm tired..
heee...
sorriee~~
o well syg sorrie wasnt able to mit u up todae..
=(..
nvm dere alwaes next time so no werri okie..
i will sure find sum time for us one..wakaka..
ala...juz now hilmee n huihui came to my house cause dey say dey had nth betta to do..
weird hee..
o well..
ended up both almost felt aslp at my house..
weird.
tired still wan come..
okie la..
u two sure on bus now..
go take early rest aite.
take care..
=)

2006-11-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

plan xxx change todae guys..
i didnt go food hunt todae..
neither did i go vivo..
ended up eating dinner at hougang mall..
got one particular hay hay...kind of put me aeroplane wakaka..
but i'm okie with it..
use to it..
ala aniwae had dinner with shiyun..
kinda of funni cause we were bugging everywhere..
den she bought a nail polish n i was playing with it..
ended up my two thumb got polish..
now veri shiny...

LOOK AT HOW SHINY MY THUMB IS
ala...okie ba..heee...looks gay..okie..
den after tat went over to de foodcourt eat....hmm...
eat alot...hee...carrot cake den wat else hmmm beef hotplate not bad ish....

hmm alot of food rite..ish..
ouh did i mention..my bro happily ordered pizza at home..
n when i reach home juz now..
i had to stuff 4 big piece of pizza into my stomach..
ala..so full siak..ceh ceh..
o well den did some shoppin....i basically bought shoelace n ankle socks..
den she bought...ring..nail polish n comb..
wat a shopping ceh ceh..
well aniwae..juz now when decided to go home..
notice something damn funni..
haha..look at de pic...

WTH....ISNT DIS SUPPOSE TO BE A BUS INTERCHANGE...kenapa kereta itu ada di situ?
okie for peeps hu dun understand mly...it means y is a car dere okie.....
haha..isnt it funni..i was kind of laughing half my life off...hahahahahaha...
haha...ok jon channel end todae okie peeps..
enjoy more pics tmr..if i ever post it..
okie take care guys..
luv u all

2006-11-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

ala...
posting blog at 1 am..is pretty weird..
but hey hey..
i was nvr normal...
hahha...
okie de thing i going to type now is dedicated to everione..
so dun feel left out peeps....
i love you(english)
ja kocham cibie(polish)
je t'aime(french)
hum tumhe pyar karte hae(hindi)
miluji te(czech)
lu'bim ta(slovakian)
ti amo(italian)
ya tebe kahayu(ukranian)
ish libe dish(german)
wo ai ni(wo ai ni)
s' agapo(greeks)
aloha wau ia oi(hawaiian)
tav myliu(lithuianian)
sa rang hae yo(korean)
aishiteru(japanese)
te ubsec(romanian)
volim te(bosnian)
te dua(albanian)
mahal kita(filipino)
te amo(spanish)
amo te(portugese)
annah be hebic(arabian)
aku cinta padamu(malay)

lalalala....
ppl like my entry...
start learning ok...
wakaka..
y m i in a extreeme good mood..
well normal la..
i'm pretty normal actualy...
everydae is a gd dae...
so smile ppl..
=)=)

2006-11-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

ala...so sad...bur..
my nano drop on de floor juz now..
pull out from my bag den went hyuuuu..
den bang..
sob sob....
but i'm cool with it..
hahaha..
ala ..drop drop liaoz..
wat to do leix..
heee..
todae damn early release work siakz..
3 o'clock...
i luv it...
den reach home 3.30//
haha..
think everybody shock rite..
heee...
o well
peeps...
no nid werri much bout me man..
i'm fine alreadi..
back to normal..
heee..maybe i may stil feel sad n mis her...
but..
still
i haf to look ahead of life..
ala..
ppl...
i juz luv de world..
*smuak*
kiss de world..
*smuak*
kiss hilmee
*smuak*
kiss huihui
*smuak*
kiss my two adik
*smuak*
kiss azima
*smuak*
kiss an
...
wakaka..
i juz luv dis ppl..
ok..
jon stop being n acting so ego n emo..
hahaha..
ok i'm juz crazi..
MY CRAZINESSS HAS REACH ITS MAXIMUM...
wakaka..
ok la..take care peep..
cya alll
jon channel resume sum other time

2006-11-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

welcome back to jon channel tonite..wakaka...
ala...
todae werking was quite fun...
wakaka...let come to de point dat...
todae not much units to change..
so was basically chatting all dae long at nyp..
saw quite a few of my frenzs todae..but didnt chat with dem..
cause with my colleague..
o well..
watever...
doesnt affect me or wat soever..
aniwe..
food at nyp..not bad actually ..
quite nice..
ppl enjoy wakaka...
ok if u asking how i feel toda..
i'm feeling aite..
hee...
ok back to my regular bugging jokes...
haha..

we all noe dat ppl find spongebob cute..
n we find things on it everywhere...
be it toys maybe at toyrus..
or maybe hmm lingeries or boxer..
ala..
all dis so common haha....

let look at dis..
i personally find it veri cute..
i got dis pic taken at de toysrus at vivo..
hehe....cute rite..
i feel like punching it on de face...
cause it looks kinda dumb..
haha... but i luv it =X

ok den dere dis guitar thingy with spongebob on it...
ala...if ppl were to play with it...
wat happens if de sound come out as ai ai captain..
well i think its oni entertainment for kids oni..=X
hu going to enjoy dis..
maybe lame teenagers..
maybe i'm one of dem hu noes..=X wakaka

o n dis..haha...de talks of de dae...
we c many shops selling dis ok..
nth to be surprised abt...
spongebob boxer..
like hw de hell did dey come up with so many designs...
dis r juz few of dem la..
u cant expect me going ard taking pic at all de shops..
de owner will sweep me out i tell ya...
...
ok ok ...i'm going to stop dis topic..
but did u noe..
dat one realli cool shop at cineleisure..
selling all type of spongebob thingy..
ranging from...boxers lingeries..N G-STRINGS!!!!!!!!
ala... for guys one..not gurls bur...
hahah...
okok o well gtg...
stay tune on my channel ...hehehe..
cya peeps=X

2006-11-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

my hand is bleeding....
i meant my finger..
a screwdriver went slant n cut my finger..
bleeding man...
finger kinda like pain..
cant type veri fast..
but i will take my time bur.,..
o well....
todae was kinda like fun cause whole da3 kiping damn shittttiiilllyyy fulll...
yup todae catch more of my works...haha...

OMG...wat is ppl thinking nowadaes...
if superman realli appears..
den dere will be civilians ard..
of course since its a green monster...
where r de powerpuff girls=X

yeah we haf to thx god for creating us...
alhamdullilah...(arab)
shen xie xie ni..(chinese)
i luv u god..(english)
deo gratis...(italian)
arigato...(jap)
gam sia..(hokkein)
duo jie..(canto)

alaa...ppl malu la...
shy shy onli..
mcm faggot..
de story of 3 sisters together =X
.....
wat oni...
heehee...
okie stop it..
stopping being lame...
aite..more of faggot n lame story tmr...
rmb to stay tune on jon channel =X

2006-11-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

ish ceh alamak..
nth...
regular disturbing blog..
was on de train juz now..
kinda funny..hahah
got one guy..eating lolipop or sumthing similar i guess..
he kinda look familiar..like my pri sch classmate..
he aws looking at me..
so i guess he was..
hahakx...
o welll funni thing..
he was happily eating eating..
den suddenly de train officer came..n say no eating..
den he was like..
swit onli wat...
den de officer say..
not even swit..
den he was like malu..
caues suddenly de whole train ppl looking..
den he hack care n contin eating ...
wakaka..
ok its not funni..
heee....

MUMMY WAT BIG EYES U HAF

DADDY WAT SMALL EYES U HAF???
small is dat aniwhere near to small..
ahakaka...

alalaa....
mummy got one giler guy..
mcm neck twisted...
=XXXXX=
okok enough of de bugging...heee
aite sum candid pics hhaha....

DE CHARLI's ANGELS>>>
MCM FAGGOT SIAK>>>hehehe

IF WE HOLD ON Together...together...together...

o well feeling betta...numb alreadi

2006-11-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

o well kinda feeling betta now...
was drinking de dae b4 at midnite...
hmm i cant imagine myself drinking again..
burr n one touch 40% alcholic drink..
wat de hell m i doing...
i woke up with a headache..not quite terrible..
juz slight only...
but still...i'm feeling much betta after releasing stress at east coast park yesterday with my adik dae all..
had a small picnic..
den was enjoying de sea..
make me kinda like forget a little trouble..
realli gotta to thx dem for asking me to go picnic..
though we plan to haf meeting in de end cancel..
thx to hali..
haiz..
i realli miss sch now..
i hope attachment end quickly n i can get back quickly..
miss de sch banana milkshake oso..
huihui hilmee...
i'm kinda fine now..
ignore me if i'm like gifing de dead looks..
haha..
juz ignore it..
i'm serious..
n farhan.. i dun wan u go ard punching ppl...
realli violent bur..
my heart is kinda like numb alreadi...
no feeling alreadi..
haiz...de words she said..realli hurts ppl alot..
alot of things happen in juz one dae..
i almost started smoking ...
but manage to stop myself..
i will regret it if i ever smoke..
o well..
den de thought of dying...
o well..
realli..
if in de world if i haf no frenzs...
my mum n bro not ard..
maybe i will jzu jump n die..
cause i wouldnt make anione sad..
so realli seriously...
i dun realli care a damn lot..
o well...
smiling smiling...
i once heard of summone telling me...
"Jon onli somone hu experiences alot..
noes how to understand n make a person smile...
but still de summone is alwaes de sad party feigning a smile..
for de sake of not letting de other party werri or sad...
de smile from u or rather de summone alwaes looks happi but still it brings a little or sorrow if de other party realli understand u...now i noe de meaning of ur smile...so i hope from todae onwards smile for my sake...not for de sake of others...
juz for urself..show dat u realli r satisfied with life n ppl..cause everytime i c u smile..i kinda like wan to cry...cause ur smile realli hides de feeling of sadness.."
dis words was once meant for me...
she said it to me..
dis girl..
well... kinda like...i guess i wont c her again..
so it doesnt realli matter animore..
i hope she stay happi as it is..not here animore...
n hmmm she not my ex so dun go thinking wild...hahaha....
o well...guess my buds...
i luv ya all...
so well take care aite..
cya guys...keje keje...
mendak siak...
haiz...

bored bur

2006-11-17T19:24:00.000+08:00

kat kerja.....mendak bur...
alamak...
bored bored..
lousy moodd...
lousy work...
lousy me...
lousy lousylousy...
ceh ceh....
haiz...dun feel like saying anithing...aite...love u peeps...

life bout u....

2006-11-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

she said I HATE U ....dis mornin to me....
mood wasnt gd but i manage to bluff through work no one notice aniwae...
gd for me..i dun wanna say anithing...
i was shock...i mean...if ppl say i hate u to me i will feel damn sad...
but from her mouth...its more den sad...
its de kind of nail pin into my heart...den spray salt n acid..like wth...
i was thinking hard wat did i do...juz when i was confuse..my another frenz told me..
tat one of my frenz RIC..told her..tat i still love her n wait for her at her blk everydae...n told her parents bout wat happen...
i was like true maybe i still love her...
but de rest of de facts r juz lie man ... FAKER>>>FUKER>>>STABBER...
dun add words to my action n my mouth n i did nth of de sort...
if u parents found out wat actually happen between us..
i made no comments...
at de least i didnt say anithing...
it doesnt concern me..
so wat if i still love u...
it means tat u dun noe me well enough...
so rite..so wat u wan to say nonbody luv me...
i'm fine with it..
so juz say it out..we broke off alreadi..
i rejected ur call so wat..
cause its simply cause of ur two time..
i knew it from de beginning..
so dun bother lying animore..
i cant take it...
i cried for u enough..
n i didnt expect myself to suddenly cry in de train juz now..
ppl were actually all looking at me..
like wat de helll...
so simply get out of my life aite..
if i miss u dat my own prob not urs...
n when u said it dis morning..
u didnt even bother listening to me..
so it juz proves...u onli think of urself..
dun regret n take back de words u say todae..
i will remember it..
" I HATE YOU "...
but still even if u say dat n de wae u treat me..
i will still say i love u for now..my hearts was pin by nail but its still struggling to be alive with de help of my adik n huihui n hilmeee....
n for u RIC>.
dun add words to my mouth..
de next time i c u ...
i will definitely punch u..
so make sure u hide..
n r u happi now..
dat ur words actually make two ppl become enemy..
happi rite..
sorrie to tell u dat...
but still fucking get lose...

Gatal guy

2006-11-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

jon gatal2.....
he lurves huihui...
he lurves his syg fahanah..
he lurves his pal hilmee..
he lurves his bro farhan...
he lurves his abg ami...
he lurves his two adik..sha n yati...
he lurves azima....
he lurves hali....
he lurves everione....

he lurves hui hui de most to hug n gif her kisses...
he swit talk to syg fahanah most....
he craps to his pal hilmee most..
he bully n disturbs his bro farhan de most.....
he lurves to picit his abg ami nehx nehx de most...
he lurves to syg his two adik de most....
he lurves to chat with azima de most....
he lurves to scold hali bugger de most..
he lurves to socialise with everione de most....

so my dis entry nice rite..
at de least i dun sound sad..
cause i dun noe wat to say to make u all less worri..
de most n de least i can do..
so welll cheer up ppl..
dun feel sad for me
...
later i cant tahan can cry again...
i'm kinda emotionall...
heeeee...
welll...aite....
i'm trying my best now aite..
even though saddnes is still dere...
i will try to lessen it...
try n i mean realli try..
it cant help if i cry again..
i cant control it..so..
hehehe...ouh well..
todae was tiring...
but not a sad dae..
tmr on site..
i scare veri tiring ...
so muz rest well..
haiz,.,..
okie peeps take care....alll....

life story

2006-11-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

nvr regretted luving u....
although i don't believe it...
from de 1st day u come into my life...
i'm still confuse y it must b u...
i won't last long if it doesn't convince me...
believe it dat my love is just for u...
i reali can't take it when it come to de end...
it's fated dat we r not together.... forever...
sometime i'm tired waiting for u...
but my love for u will nvr change for now i guess.....
...hakz...
i guesss dat all i haf to say....
well realli...
i'm so lonely all i haf to sae...
haiz...dat hw u feel being alone...
serious when all ur frenz buzi...
with keje/skool..
i dun blame but still..
de lonliness is dere...
..when we were together...
well..
u made me smile alwaes...
even de things u say sumtimes hurt..
but still we got through it..
welll..
time change..
maybe i'm juz a fool not to accept de fate..
but still even if fate spare me...
i wont spare myself..
i nvr regretted leaving u for de two weeks...
at de least..
i felt a bit of freedom..
or maybe too much..
i dun noe..
i was almost grasping for air with u..
yet i dun wan to let go..
i dun wan to hurt u..
but in de end ..
de words u said it first...
well..
maybe..
i juz thought of myself n i thought i knew u..
well sorriee..~~~
couldnt get de parts n facts of me rite..
hmm..
still u r stil lso swit in mind..
we may ignore each other now..
but i hope we remains frenzs..
even though we r not meant for each other..
noeing u for so long..
make me realise..
all things realli take times..
impossible to rush..
de possiblity for us to be togethr in de first place was zero aniwe..
yet we r together..
time proves it..
but for nwo..
even if time spare us..
i wont let us be together again..
cause i cant take de torture animore..
it realli hurts..
making me cry..
i hate myself when i cry...
n all de trouble i haf to get my frenz for console..
i'm juz a fuck up guy aite..
so everyone sorrrriiieeee...
juz dun bother me for sumtimes..
i cant take it..
at de fact i'm alwaes asking for help..
u all juz throw me aside..
dun bother me..
i dun wan to be too dependent on others..
i dun wan anione to like or luv me...
maybe dat y i irritates ppl all de times..
cause i dun wan others to care abt me..
if dey did..
if anithing did happen to me..
de sorrow would be strong for dem..
so well guys juz sorrie aite..
dun talk to me..
let me be a loner..
i dun liek to talk animore now..
in case no one notice it..
not liek i use to..
so well juz jolly welll...
jon shut de fuck up..
aite...

toddaeee

2006-11-13T01:28:00.000+08:00

3 words to describe todae...
fun.....
tiring......
full.....
aite tat tat....
todae kinda forgot all my prob...
was kinda enjoying my dae i mean at nite la...
so.. welll...
i guess...
life still has to go on..
i try la ah...
hui n hilmeee...
i guesss...
currently..
u all r de sparks of lights shining in my life...
not to mention an...
realli thx..
n i'm fortunate to haf my two adik n azima hu alwaes ard me to console me..
syg i love u too..
wont forget u...
so take care all of ya..
i haf been realli trying not to cry animore..
but i juz did de dae b4 oops..
think onli an heard me cry..
thx bro..for being around..
i realli grateful...
serious..
well look at de time..
i gotta to go..
so take care my buds.,...

life man~~

2006-11-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

well does doing so much for a person realli matters..
i dun noe...it doesnt realli bother anione rite..
aniwae..
first time..
i did so much for a frenz..
nobody realise it aniwae...
no one appreciate it aniwae..
maybe..
ani prob line is juz a extra..
so jon shut up..

nth to do~~

2006-11-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

todae had presentation at suntec....convention...
tower 3..
wasnt nervous..
but question ask was tough..
but i was cool with it..
so it juz ended in half n hour...
cool rite...
aite i had lunch with zima todae...hee n carol...den tat tat...hehehe...
aite...i'm going to do dis through cause summone ask me to aite...
**waste my time onli =X?**

So, here it is ;
1) how old do you wish you are?
-actually i wish i was never born...so age doesnt matter

2) what do you do when vending machines steal your money?
-most prob....kick de machine...all try harder at other machines

3) do you count yourself kind?
-no i'm not...

4) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
-melayu...n french...

5) Do you know neighbours?
-onli a few

6) Do you follow your horoscope?
-nvr once...

7) Would you move for the person you love?
-dun noe...tak tahu

8) Do you believe that opposites attact?
-i dun noe...maybe its a person charms or appearance maybe...juz like sum bugger hu luvs pretty girls..

9) Favourite channel(s)?
-i dun even watch tv..mayb once a while...but no preference

10) Favourite place to go on weekends?
-home slping or maybe orchard..

11) Showers or Baths?
-bothsss

12) Do you paint your nails?
-dun think so...maybe if i did...i will look faggot

13) Do you trust people easily?
-too easily.....i alwaes get deceive

14) What are your phobias?
-nth..juz a few sentence...i hate u..dun look at me...n dun talk to me...

15) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
-nope

16) Where would you rather be now?
-outside of my house...

17) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
-all my buddies...i guess...too many to name

18) Heavy or light sleeper?
-light..

19) Are you paranoid?
-wat de hell...obviously....well...guesss urself..

20) Are you impatient?
-my patients..doesnt meet its limit...

21) Whats your favourite pick up line?
-huh..serious....icic..okie...

22) Whats your main ringtone on your mobile?
-snake

23) What were you doing at midnight last night?
-thinking n chatting on phone...

24) What did the last text on your phone says?
-take care aite abang...

25) Most recent movie you watched?
-raise your voice

26) Name three things you have on you at all times.
-standard, IPOD, HANDPHONE & WALLET

27) What colour are your bedsheets?
-hmmm blue white checkered

28) what is your favourite part of the chicken?
-thigh

29) **duknoe wat's d ques**

30) How tall are you barefoot?
-173...a aite height..i wish to be a bit slightly taller..

31) What should ur partner have in themselves?
-cheerfulnes...fun....care...concern...esteem

32) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
-nth....

33) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
-heaven...

34) Have you received flowers before?
-gt....least expected person..

35) Does someone have a crush on you?
-like hw would i noe...i think not now ba...

36) Whats your favourite candy?
-anithin dat calls demselves sweet...i would luv it...except chocolate....dat de limits...i dun like it...tooo sweet..

37) If you have three wishes, what will they be?
-nvr in dis world...
-time go back....
-b3 abit more fucked up...

38) Four random people to do this.
-hui(i do alreadi so shhhh)
-shell
-syg
-meemee

okie i'm done...nth more./..sh...tired...go slp..bye./..

...

2006-11-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

haf u ever seen such a beautiful nite~~
thx to adik yati~~
thx to hui~~
thx to adik sha~~
thx to nenek zima~~
thx to shell~~
the for de concern aite...
im aite with it alreadi~~
so dun sad for me..
i will borrow ur ears if i nid it..
realli thx~~
todae was fun had long john with zima hali n adik...was nice..
den we had photo taking session...cool heee..
kip asking passerby help us take..
all passrby damn funni..
gt one press le haven flash den when passing back to us it flash n went we look at de photo...
was cute cause cause de onli thing we c in the photo is our body...
hee more to go but i lazi typee~~
i been off from werk for two daes cause gt presentation haiz,,,,
gd or bad i dun noe... nvm fridae go back...heee

.....life story.....

2006-11-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

rite now i dun noe y....
but i once swear i wont do it again...
but i did again todae...
i shred my tears for her again...
well y...
is it juz so hard to forget summone...
i'm a idiot...
she juz not worth it...
well i hope i can say tat...
y..
maybe a few yrs of relationship is juz so hard to end in juz two weeks...
it juz too hard...
maybe u can do it...but not me...
i'm not tat type of guy..
u dun noe me well enough...
sumtimes...
i feel lonely...
its even hard to get someone to listen to u talk..
or maybe talk to summone...
all r juz too buzi...
i'm leading a fuck up life...
or maybe it juz my character not to mix with ppl...
i dun noe...
either wae...
i'm not popular in ani sense..
aite....
e.g...
ppl may say i'm close to hui..
she shares all her things with me...
she hides nth from me...
i'm her gd listener...
her good pal...
her gd frenzs...
but seriously.. speaking...
i'm not de closest to her...
u all may nt thought of it..
it juz sumone else..
hakz...
i'm ok with it as long as she smiles when i craps to make her smile...
i rather she smile den cry...
everytime she crys i feel sad..
dun noe y..
i realli dun understand my self....
den..i haf been thinking of it....long~~~
i noe alot of my frenzs r hafing probs..~~
i tried console dem...
help dem...
but most of de time...
my help not nided i guesss...
i wished to share deir prob to lighten deir load....
but most of de time ...
all i get back after i say "i be ur ear, care to share...." is
either nutting or dun feel like talking abt it....
well such a feedback has make me doubt of myself...
m i realli nided...
seems like no one nids me or anithing...
maybe a few others i guess...
my mum aite...i making no comment on it....
my grandma...haiz sama no comment....
my bro hmm maybe once a while gd to me..but de recent sentence he gave me..
make me realli sad...
den well..my dad...i dun miss him ah...i dun noe y...maybe its juz cause he was nvr dere for me from me young to now....
or maybe for de slap he gave me for sumthing i nvr did...n it was cause of my bro who put de thing not properly...
i dun noe...
i was treated most unfairly most of de times...
maybe dat de reason i turn bad during my sec 1 n 2...
i guess..
i changed realli alot...
after i come back from thai..
n after de relationship ended...
i dun noe which affected me...
shell notice my changed n tag at my board...
i noe... i notice it myself...
maybe my attitude...
de wae i talk...
my interest...
de ppl i mix with..
i dun noe...
hilmee is a great guy....
his one hu understands others..
n willing to help n listen...
i appreciate it...
realli thx for listening..
i think if i knew u earlier..
we may be great pal...
i dun noe..
maybe tat wat i think..
my wishful thinking..
maybe...
it alwaes has been..
An said...
he miss me..
wan to chat with me..
say he nids a ear..
well...
i told him i be his ear..
i listen to him..
chat with him when he was at de lowest..
but...
he alwaes kip quiet abt his prob....
alwaes remain silent...n say nutting..
dun feel like saying...
not time to say..
or wat soever...
i thought of it..
maybe i can stop worrying abt him..
n stop calling him...
in de first place...
i called him for de first time was cause...
he was sad....
n said dat he wanted to "go home"..

well dis magic line was de line....de sentence....de words...
dat make me wan to talk to him..
n another is cause i helping her...
to talk to him..
when she left him..
i juz dun wan him to be sad...
i may not noe anithing abt him...
serious...even though i chat with him most of de time..
but de % of me seeing him is like so super low..
haks..maybe...i'm juz a extra in his life..
n my presence is not nided...
n even if i was around it wouldnt affect him..
his life would juz go on....
well den khai khai khai...
i dun noe ah u ....
when i first met u ..
well u were sad i noe..
u knew i was too..
we started chatting..
we shared problems....
we sad together....
but now..
i dun noe..
maybe...i changed or wat ...
after puasa...
de no. of times we chat is well getting lesser...
n...u dun share ur probs with me animore...
u juz kip it to urself...
aite..
i noe its none of my concern..
n i shuld juz fuck off...
so wat de big deal...
aite...
i juz kip my mouth shut...
my fingers to myself...
n my concern juz let it die..
i noe its not nided..
recently...
i'm grateful to azima..
she been a great listener...
was chatting with her de other dae during jln raya...
she a great companion...
reallii~~`
heee~~
sumtimes...i realli thought abt it...
is msn realli nided...
mine put dere like whole dae onli a few ppl will chat with me..
its alwaes de same few la actually..
hui,syg,hay,den 1 or two others...
its same...
not much diff...
i'm getting sick of msn...
maybe shuld juz uninstall n not use pc...
nth much aniwae...
welll....
for me...
life realli sux...
fuck up...
screw...
i dun noe..
i haf low self esteem now..
cause of myself...
or cause of others..
dat for others to find out n tell me...
i dun noe aite..
i'm kind of tired of life..
so i can juz jolly well....
shut up n get lose...
if i offend anione in dis post...
i'm realli sorrie..
didnt mean it..
thx~~~ bye~~~

jln raya with peeps

2006-11-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

2006-11-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

finallyyy....
i'm blogging again...
well i nvr blog for few daes alreadi rite..
wasnt in mood to do so..
sorrie to dose hu visit without ani updates...
realli sorriee...
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....
dis is a nice song..u peeps shuld listen...
hee sorrie..
~~ aniwae....
life wasnt great for me as alwaes...
but yesterday went jln raya with...
azima hayati shahila alif hali fairus yunus shahfa n mushin...
was fun tiring...
n FULLLLLLL>..
kip eating eating eating..
well jon was wearing baju...
go my frenzster c ba..
hee.~~
well fridae i gg syg house den sundae... maybe yunus...hus noes...
depends on alif dey all..
~~~ WE C HOW DEN...hah...
my colleagues kip thinking i'm indonesian...well nth wrong with tat..
but weird though...hakz~~ aite i go shower alreadi...
bbrbrb

2006-10-28T18:42:00.000+08:00

Aite...I'm Bloggin Again..
hee~~ went to noh house yesterday was nice hee...
his mum cooking hmm....
sedap sedap...~~~
veri friendly his mum n dad...
=)
well he asked me whether wan to go todae...
but...
he nid to go sumwhere else...
n nid time confirmation too..
den michelle fall sicks...
den i guess wont be going...
i stay at home =)..
listening to breaking benjamin so cold...
realli sad...
reminds me of her..~~
guess forgetting her isnt easi...
its not liek words juz come out from my mouth...
well...
i may be sad..
but i realli hope to cheer ppl up...
sumone told me yesterday..
how i wish u r staying near me...
so when i sad i can find u to chat with u..
hah..
maybe i dun c ani gd points in me...
but ppl do..
at least dere still ppl hu wish to chat with me..
=)..
well...wan her to noe tat...
if i could i wish to stay near u too...
well...
i realli wish i can cheer u up whenever u r sad...
as ur buddy pal...frenz....big bro...
ani thing u can think of ba...~~ juz dun feel sad animore..
de moment u cry...
de moment my heart breaks....
smile aite...
take care alwaes,,,

work fun todae

2006-10-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

todae work was damn enjoying n fun....
i was changing motherboard...
hardisk...
keyboard...
everything todae...
was nice..
first time i thought attachment was fun hehehe...
aniwae...thought with my colleague alot todae..hehe...
had lunch with dem..hmmm
hehe...den todae work time like juz nice...
not tat long hehehe...

selamat hari raya

2006-10-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

.....selamat hari raya to alll....
i'm tired...
being out de whole dae yesterday juz reach home dis morning 7 am plus...
went over to geylang de bazaar area...
was super crowded....
quite nice ...
walking here n dere....
eating all de yum yum food...
sedap sedap..
hehehe...
den met up with bone n karim den basher ...
basher didnt say anithing weird..
den saw hui2 say hi n we left hehe..
o ya...
i went with jac n shell...hehe...
tmr working again..
so tiring..haiz...
but aniwae...
nvm juz haf to tahan 3 more daes..
den 2nd week past...
yea...fast...
i hope everything end fast...
i'm not enjoying attachment....
is kinda bored..hehe///
well i;m more of de outgoing type haha...
not office type...
so tat y..
hehe...

2006-10-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

now...
dizzy..
vision blur...
cant type anithing animre..
i'm basically staring at keyboard..
cant c de letters clearly...
well i think todae wont be a good dae for me...
think tonite if i feeling much better den talk to frenz on phone ba...
till den..i going rest le......take care... all...

4th dae

2006-10-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

todae was quite buzi...
morning qa checklist...
den halfwae...
went out to raffles...
hsbc to set up printer...
install printer on like countless number of pcSSSSSS...
alots siak..
dey can actually juz put on netowrk....
den map path can le..
but dey insist wan all one by one...
waste time...
aniwae...
but installing all ..
den 5 pm le...
lazy go back..
so with de engineer...
purposely waste time..
until 6 plus..
den i go back..
juz nice release work..
go home
hahah....
nice..
tmr i going orchard...
to hsbc again..
hope i enjoy..
haiz..
wat to do..
work ma..
haiz..ok ba i going rest le...
take care hui..
dun sad le....

3rd dae if work

2006-10-18T21:10:00.000+08:00

todae was slightly better....
yeah..i noe how change de keyboard of laptop alreadi...
hehehe...not bad ah ish ish..
todae i damn violent push trolley too fast go room bang very loud..
den my boss look at me den say ask u careful alreadi still like tat...
den he gif dat stern look haiz...alamak...bad dae n clumsy dae...
de admin drop phone...engineer drop all de box...noh bang trolley oso..
dun noe wat happen todae..was violent hehehe...aniwae..
my another boss said...if i was to continue like dis..next time in acacia...
will haf more mad ppl...hopes...i nth to say la..but really spoils my mood..
todae i partition one lappy n was figuring out how to change de motherboard...
tmr i guess i will be checking a sumthing call qa list for de whole dae on pc....
means typing typing la..
well wat to do..
lucky tmr de fouth dae hehehe....den sat no nid work shiok..hehehe

2nd dae of work

2006-10-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

finally its de second dae of work...so fast ish ish...
i hope dis week end quickly...
its kind of tiring...i everydae reach home mcm wan die like tat..
super damn tiring..
cause de job is not as interesting as it looks..
well mine is actually de hp laptop service centre...
which is name acacia la...
been pushing trolleys ard to eq room to gif customer back deir laptop which is fix...
den rushing over to eq to get express service laptop...60 bucks per express service..
means work nid completed in two hours time...hehehe...
aniwae...dat wat i do onli n de pushing trolley is onli like at 11.30,2.30 n 5...
imagine in between i sit n wait for how long...
n its not like u haf express service everytime...
n well i oso do returning of parts but tat onli like once a dae or twice...dat all i did...
i'm freaking bored....
n todae 9 plus am i went over to science centre to set up 21 pc with noh...
was tiring...sweating..
after finish went back...
but at ard 4 pm plus de person call say wire ugly tangling ard...
ask us go back tied up nicely...
bored...den de boss say us noe not our fault...but can still arrange nicely...
well de person hu bought us dere n do pc with us didnt say anithing when we completed...
n de in charge juz now c us finish oso say..ok done ty den ask us go le...
like tat lohz...our fault ah..
haiz...good luck to me den...
tmr another long dae...
alamak...siak...haiz....

2006-10-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

ahh..i'm dead beat....
not because of my works tat started todae n ended late...
is practically because i didnt slp at all....
my whole body feels like jelly now...alamak siak...
i think i will be resting early todae...i doubt i can even wake up on time to eat breakfast todae...
aniwae...tmr i will be going over to de science centre to set up pc...
isnt it cool...
yet...i'm attached to acacia i think i mention it though..
yup partner with noh in a attachment is cool...
his damn lame hahaha..
well i break fast with him juz now..ate at banquet at vivo city..
but for sum reason...
de food doesnt taste as great as de one at woodland..
haiz...
tmr 9 muz reach alreadi...
miting noh at 8.20...
den shuld i slp or wake up for breakfast later...
alamak siak...i dun noe...
my eyes is practically closing..
almost felt aslp at de mrt train juz now...
lucky open eyes jzu nice hougang...
i bought cheese fries...
but dun noe y...
no mood to eat...
haiz...
work is sumthing dat can make ppl forget everything...
but mine doesnt haf any big impacts...
because....i was practically sitting in de office de whole dae chatting...
onli stand up a while to move trolley onli hehe n rush to get lappy back from eq room...
i like de eq room ppl dey r so friendly...hehehe...
well my working time is 9 to 6.45 monday to fridae....
lucky sat no nid..hehehe..
rest well jon...
tmr is yet another long dae...
haiz....
aku pergi mandi now...
so dun disturb thx ...tata...cya...

alamak siak...

2006-10-15T15:08:00.000+08:00

such a tiring dae like alwaes...
ppl ask me y..
i dun noe how answer...
its juz bored...
my attachment starts tmr....
n other peeps start deir class..
wakaka...
but y...tell me y...
y SO FAR.....my attachment place...
alexander districtpark. siak...
alamak...ah de....
its a 1 hr journey...
n i haf to squeeze with working ppl on train...
haiz...
wat to do..life is like tat...
i'm juz so glad abg went to cisco...
all de best to him...
den syg oso...
not bad with fauzi...
heheh..
at fss.com..at kembengan plaza.... gd luck to her osoo..
ouh did i mention my company is acacia IT service pte ltd..
hehehe...tat doesnt sound familiar to me though...
aniwae...yesterday went out with hui to break fast...
at far east....den she bought a t-shirt for her u-noe hu...
its alwaes liek tat...hehe...
de food we ate was nice ....heheh sedap sedap...yummy yum yum...
den after tat we had sum photo taking session at de mrt station...
hahaha...was kind of weird heheh...with ppl looking at u enjoying de scene...
oopsss=X..den one thing funni was while she was standing in de train..
she suddenly drop her paperbag...y..
caue she suddenly felt aslp...
haha funni siak...
den after tat i went over to woodland with her...
den i went over to bukit panjang to find an...
was a enjoying dey though...
cause an is a big jubo oso...hehe...was fun talking with him...
den he drove me to his house...
den i send him songs...
den he drove me back home...hehe..
fun.enjoying nite..
back home..den i chatted with hui n an on phone..
ard 6 plus i went to slp...
was tired alreadi..
hehe...well woke up at 2 todae thx to my mum for waking me up..
but i heard my bro shouting to my mum...
y dun u juz let him slp its a weekend aniwae..
but too late i'm alreadi awake...
y didnt he shouted earlier...hehehe...

19th days of ramadhan

2006-10-12T03:44:00.000+08:00

time pass first lohz.....19th days alraedi...
hehe..
ppl say it tests patience but to me was alrite..
dun noe y..
maybe i'm insanely...mentally...not rite..
haha...
aniwae....
had tennis training jzu now..
ooo which was yesterday...
haha...i woke up super late...
n reach dere super late oso..
sorrie guys make u all wait so long...
reach dere le seems like all waiting for me to play match..
mix doubles...
den play la...
den i won with yati team together...
she seems a bit tense...
shahila n azima...looks very stress playing with me ....
i dun noe y...
relax onli...
i'm not a big monster...
juz normal...
relax lu...
den i break fast with dem which was ard hmm..i guess 6.55 ard dere...
hehehe...den started eating n drinking...
funni de whole table of us seems like eating de same thing though haha..

cc de pic..haha...
den after dat we chat chat lohz...
den halfwae shahila sick i guess...
den johan came n bring her back...
hope she get well soon...
he den went home lohz..
late at 9 plus 10 lohz..
tired lohz..
shower lohz.
chat with hui lohz..
chat with an lohz...
den i go slp lohz..
wake up at 3 am lohz...
cannot slp liaoz lohz..
super refresh lohz...
not tired at all lohz..
m i even human lohz..
wan continue slp de lohz...
but cannot lohz...
dun noe y lohz..
oooppssss..
haha okok i stop de lohz thing hahaha...
its kind of irritating though..
hehe...
now i guess i'm waiting for 4 am...
to wake hui up to cook breakfast...
hw kind can i get..
purposely wake up to wake one ppl up..
because of her request obviously..not i crazy...
haha okie lu take care all...

2006-10-11T04:06:00.000+08:00

i juz had my breakfast now resting though...
maybe slping later...
not tired...
maybe my thoughts been running lost since den..
my mood has change...
i'm positive bout life...
but is tat really wat i wan..
i dun noe myself animore..
now i make new frenzs..
but my old frenzs still talk to me but not as much as last time..
i dun noe...
maybe its de wae i handle things is wrong in de first place..
i sincerely apologise to dose hu cried for me...
hu feel sad for me....
hu was alwaes dere for me...
n i sincerely thx u all at de same time..
cause of u all my smile has been put down back on my face...
thx...
well lastly...to her..
i decided not to think of u animore...
u r juz not worth it...
dun ask me y....
my eyes c everything...
maybe not my heart...
but till den....
In my life You're all that matters...
In my eyes the only truth I see....
When my hopes and dreams have shattered...
You're the one that's there for me....
When I found You I was blessed.....
hakz....
thx take care lu...

2006-10-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

hey i'm home again..
finally...
was having a headache todae...
wasnt in de mood to shop though..
but didnt tell hui..
dun wan to disappoint her..
n nvr go ..
but is okie..
de suffering is alwaes one sided...
aniwae..
i bought a new cap again..
a black stussy cap..not bad ish ish!!
den after tat hui went everywhere shopping..
so i follow her...
seems like she looking for bottoms instead of tops..
but is okie for me...
hehhee....
aniwae..
we went over to CWP after tat to meet her frenz xinyan...
but on de train..
dere one particular bugger...
hu splill vanilla coke all over de floor...
n wiping it all over me...
bugger...
make me sticky top to bttm...
haiz...
den had dinner at banquet was nice...
heheh...well..
den dey ended up shopping again all de wae...
i wasnt in de mood but i didnt sae anithin...
juz cont all de wae...
sorrie to u two for having de depression looks..
sorrie...minta maaf...
well came home after tat at ard 10 plus reaching 11 though..,
den settle down talking to syg n ain..
ain helpful..say wan gif me all de help if i ever wan convert..
hehe..
den i learn abt Alhamdulillah n darul arkam..
Alhamdulillah means thx allah....
darul arkam i suppose its a place for converts...
well..i think for me dere a possibility dat i will convert..
but i'm not convert with it yet...
haf to c hw my life goes....
till den...
i'm still myself...

2006-10-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

my whole dae todae...
wasnt doing anithing much actually...
juz designing some pic with photoshops..
den watching get backers on youtube.....
was kind of bored..
was playing psp oso....
but soon...i became really bored...
n i ended up gifing sum testi to sum ppl i like alot..
well....tat hw i spend my dae todae...
i will be going to de zoo tmr...but...
sadly...hilmee wont be coming...cause.....
he has to follow his parent to geylang to do sum shopping..
wat to do...
i'm cool with almost everything...
well...
todae...was chatting with one particular 1/2 animal...
den our conversation almsot ended in a fight....
but lucky we both dissolve it...
wasnt cause we did anithing...
was juz cause of one particular person onli...
haiz...i making no big comment on him..
cause i'm quite glad i knew him...
accept de fact i dun like de wae he talks negatively..
but yesterday on phone with him was fine..
he sounds very all excited abt hari raya.. n dec time
where he going to thai to do shopping...
n i did de weirdest thing yesterday...
talking to him on phone when i showering...
i juz simpll put my phone on loudspeaker...
n i was chatting with him through out my bathing times...
sounds weird though...
from outside i may sound like sum pretty weird person...
talking alone in de bathroom...
but hey wait...
ppl sings rite...
i'm juz practising my speech...
so its normal...
well....
i'm talking to my abg now...
cause my two phone buddy isnt home yet...
maybe later den...
will be slping at 5 again..
cause will be cooking breakfast again with de 1/2 animal.....
but come to think of it...i'm 1/2 charcoal too...
alamak...i love de wae i'm tan...
cause i look faggot if i'm not...
well attachment for me will start on 16...
n i will be going over to sch on 12 to hear where i'm posted to.
i hope i'm posted to sum place where all my buddy r ard..
hee..chills...
till den...
take care all...

2006-10-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

i'm kind of tired of life...bored to say...evrything...same everydae....nth cahnge ...10 yrs back like tat....10 yrs later also like tat....life for me seems to be sad n disapoointing...maybe i'm rite abt myself...i nvr shuld be in dis world in de first place...but well...i nvr regretted noeing all my frenzs..n noeing u in de place...i love u....take care girl.....

2006-10-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

hmm to dae a nice nice dae...went to hm for tennis camp meeting again..saw hali dey all again..break fast with dem rodae hehehe..well its nice..heeheee...aniwae my mood is normal de few daes...my result is all B n gpa 3.3...no big comments...i'm pes BP by de wae so hehehe until i blog again cya all

2006-10-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

woooo......tmr checkup n result out......nervous lu...hehehe....but i think my gpa will drop...i think i will get two b ba...think will drop to 3 my result sad...hehehe....aniwe.....i dun noe...if my result is tat...i making no big fuss...cause i nvr put in ani effort at all...=P....well tmr i going out with an...hope he dun suddenl;y got thigns again den cannot make it..haiz....well well ....tmr will c isa too...hehe....gd siak..veri long nvr go out with dem...

juz now i cook my own dinner..cause my mum juz went bang on de door n went out...lala....veri nice...i had susage...dumpling...sunny side up egg....baked beans for my dinner...heheh....den i baked my rice in cheese...wakak...its life man...heheh....well since she juz bang out on de door..angry cause i dun wan help her take things to grandma house...den dat dat...i not making fuss abt it le..i cn still make my own dinner =X..... todae was bored...de whole dae i at home....watching cartoon...was bored siak..but wat to do..sianz...zzz.....no choice.. all frenz working....

2006-10-02T15:09:00.000+08:00

finally i waited long for todae to come...yet ppl disappoint me again...suddenly got work again...i dun noe whether to be angry or wat...but i making no much comment...

aniwae....been like dis since last week.....last week sumone ask me out for like 3 daes...in de end all 3 daes was like ...suddenly cancel cancel cancel....den like todae also...plan nicely early monring tell me cancel...i dun noe la.....u all make me lose interest in going out with u all...cause u all alwaes disappoint me....so unless u all plan nicely...i will not go out with u all again....

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nt bad juz now went out with hali azima shahila yati n johan..heheh...at geylang dere looking at baju kurong...maybe i buying one...c firest hehehe...cause hari raya i going out with dem...dey invited me touch..heheh... haiz..juz now break fast with dem wow...nice2....i saw shafiq..yea veri long nvr c him...miss him siak..hehe....aniwae after dat abit walk walk den went home tired siak..hehe......

2006-10-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

ah uh la...using pc again...dis coming wednesdae will be de release of my result n my medical checkup date..hehe..nt bad...time pass fast....haiz...todae whole dae at home..fasting fasting ....den watching vcd...cause really bored...tmr may be going out with hui ...nt sure yet...haf to c whether we cfm it by tonight..juz now went to bliss at 8 plus n ate dere....to disturb alien..but he super buzi...de banana milkshake veri nice siak...sedap sedap...hehe..
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dis dew daes i thinking of her again...my one n only her...though time pass fast....it doesnt mend de wound in my heart...i hope...dat dae end quickly for me...so i do not haf to feel de sorrow n pain i feel everydae...it really hurts alot....looking at her photo onli breaks my heart.....tears drop with every wink....i cn onli c from afar now...nt near her....
i dun wan to be hurt again....many left me...but at de same time...i find new friends....really thx to dem i'm able to stand up again...forgive me for those hu i hurt b4...didnt really mean it...minta maaf....

2006-09-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

not bad fasting month...start again,,,i fasting with my frenz for pass few daes...heheh....aniwae....tennis camp ended yesterdae..was fun..knew alot of great frenz...hehe....special thx to shahilah alif hali azimah yati...hahaha...u all were great companion..hehe...aniwae...i lost at tennis camp...partly because of me fasting...n partly...cause derry skill improved tremendously i didnt expect tat...haha...but still was fun de match...but made me total shred down....thx to an n hui to call n chat with me...appreciate it..i luv all of u ...take care muahx...

few daes out

2006-09-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

wakaka........ok i post fridae things first b4 i forget...went to orchard with khai sa jc hilmee n syafiq...i think its spell dat wae...think all of dem is hi2 classmate =X....except isa i call one..lala...nt bad fun..wanted watch muvee...but late alreadi so change mind..in de end go long john....b4 going long john isa alreadi left for work..den i think after out of long john khai left..de dumb dumb khai...lala....den we went pool also...but dat b4...syafiq came....aniwae...at 7 plus pm..we all ended at a seat outside wheelock place...chatting all de wae..funni...lame....looking at all de ppl walking pass...hehehe....ok tat abt all....sumarise version..haha...

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yesterday nicenice...de carnival...so fun but yet so tiring...haha....i was suppsoe to be in-charge of two stall but i kip m.i.a.....thx to min n hui dis two ppl..haha....kip pull me here n dere....aniwae..was okie..haha...den nice alot of thing to exchange yesterday..i got one 50 dollars m1 voucher...hehe...yeah ncienice....den i got two personalise name tag of myself...one from min n one from hui2...thx to both of dem lala...haha...den de dae juz pass like tat....taking photo...changing freebies....disturbing ppl..squeezing ppl./..=Xoops....wakaka...nice met miss goh yesterday..so long nvr c her le..nicenice..den she got dumk in de pool..so poor thing..hehe....lucky she got bring clothes to change...hhehe...

2006-09-21T17:30:00.000+08:00

Dis is from wat of de song i like Mcfly"i wanna hold you" really gifs me back alot of sad memory but still times past my wound though not mend but better den b4...den to a few caring frenzs thx....
"I Wanna Hold You"

I wanna hold you

Tell me that you want me baby
Tell me that it's true
Tell me that you need me so much more then i need you
Tell me that you're happy hunny
Tell me that you're fine
Say that you without me
you can't get me of your mind

I wanna hold you
Girl won't you take me back
I wanna hold you bad
Just tell me that you understand
I wanna hold you bad

Tell me why you left me baby
Tell me what to do
Tell me what you hated and I will change the world for you
Won't you say you missed me hunny
I'm here with broken heart
I know you'd like to kiss me and it's tearing me apart

I wanna hold you
Girl won't you take me back
I wanna hold you bad
Just tell me that you understand
I wanna hold you bad

Now i know
This feeling's getting stronger
And it's growing every day
And i can't resist much longer
I am so
Sorry 'cause i was wrong girl
And since you left me days go on and on
They go on
They go on
And on and on

I wanna hold you
Girl won't you take me back
I wanna hold you bad
Just tell me that you understand
I wanna hold you bad bad bad
And i hope you understand
I wanna hold you bad

2006-09-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

finally todae tennis training n had game with shiyun...tiring siak.....i moring play all de wae...to 4 pm....almsot dying...reach home alreadi mcm...jelly....die die...den lie on bed slp le......den got awaken by hui2 phone call...den all de wae cahtting with hilmee khai n hui until now...wooo...

2006-09-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

originally had tennis training todae...but cancelled due to bad weather.....i ended up at home slping n watching vcd...hahaha....den meet up with shiyun hui2 n jac at hougang plaza for dinner...yeah2....suki suhi...not bad....haha....ate quite alot..but compare to jac...mine is juz a small portion..haha...she go home still nid eat dinner poor her...tmr will be meeting willis at raffles...haha

ikea day

2006-09-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

dat day went bongo dat day picture...edited by hui2...at ikea buy candle 30 packets heavy siak...n den i put de3 teddy hahaha...i weird weird de...de meat ball dere very nice...sedap sedap....heehee...den after dat cab to bongo burgers night safari...far far..hehehe...den after dat dinner at bongo den watch de show by sarawak ppl ..nice2....hhehehe...de fries nice siak...sedap...tak boleh tahan...too nice...

2006-09-15T18:47:00.000+08:00

ace ace.........todae....badminton with hay willis jacky weelong marcus ming tak ..dat all...end finish...wahaha..todae damn bored..watching gundamn after coming back from badminton...dun no wat to do...holidae bored ...hehee...den maybe tmr i going to my grandma hosue cause its my aunt birthday...dey celebrating ....hmm...well...bro will be coming back tonight again later...haiz...dun think will be able to use pc..cause will be buzi playing with his psp...=X....my medical date change again..dun noe y dey email me tell me change to 4 oct again..after cfming its on 29 sep...so stupid...haiz..nvm....no comments....

2006-09-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

ahh no bad...todae go bongo burgers...cannot take it...food nice ...especially de fries...nice siaz...but super full....cannot take it...ahaha....had meatball at ikea...nice2....

2006-09-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

ah...finally exam over...so now is holidae...was juz thinking abt de medical date...when i realise dey change my date to 25 oct...wth..so long..sianz ah...i requested cause i wan change day....not change to my attachment day la...bodoh...idiot...so angry and also sianz..now i emailing ns again...tell dem change again..if dey dun approve i nth to say le..

aniwae...todae wanted to find grandma but very tired n very late le..so change mind turn home...haiz..nvm ba...next week i got time i go find her....i can alwaes go c her when she discharge...hehehe....i noe where my uncle dey all staying aniwae...not tough finding..c whether i lazy anot only...haiz...

n recently gotten sick of life again..bored...like no point living...i still think i'm born a loner...although got some non human idiots..keep changing de wae i m...i dun noe...de feeling is still dere....haiz...sickly man...i hate de wae i m...but i not going to change it...